life is beautiful ????

somebody say life is beautiful and somebody say again life is sucks ? it's confusing ! well life is beautiful when you feel happy , right? and life is sucks when you feel sad ! so what's the point of shit fuck life it is i don't get it at all damn it !!! so we just have to be kind and pray to God all the time and remove all of our sins!! well it is the hard time for me terrible time for my life i can't explain it all i feel better here but in other side i feel so sad i don't know why? i mean i know why but it is so insane i just can keep pray for my life and just keep imagining dreaming because thats all my cure it's all makes me so happy and keep strong haha ! but i'm mean it!!! and now i don't know what i'm doin... it just confusing i feel not free i want to be like what i'm wanna be without responsibility ! i hate it somuch i'm stress and for the last time i made so many mistakes i'm sorry God i'm so sorry :'( i need a time to alone well it's all somuch ridiculous you'll be laughing if you read it but honestly this is all what i'm feeling now .